i've had enough!!

whatever it takes, i'll move on with my life. i'll get a new number, one of those special numbers, the vvip ones, and i'll select a few of my current contacts to be included in my new number. others, can sod off!

i'll create new email persona, specifically for my new life, and i'd definitely would want to change my address for renting into permanent. whatever it takes, i had enough!

it's bad enough to know your ex-girlfriend got married, twice, it's even worst to know that the persons that i had crushes once, almost all of them, got married already, or in a position way too high for me reach in my current condition.

even worst, my financial status is rapidly deteriorating, no matter how much sweet talk i've told myself, it just won't cut it out anymore.

i'll do whatever it takes to be free. i asked nicely, people wouldn't help. i asked nicely with pleading, people took advantage of my desperateness. now, no more. out went the good, now the darkside will take over.

down with the flu

i didn't update this blog for two days, it's because of the flu. i was down with it, and now, i'm still recovering. but i'll try to give more sentences than this post in the next post. hopefully.

Pindaan Ilham Bermusim

kutatap renungan sinar dakapannya
dalam kucupan seribu kenangan
hidup berpenghujung sebuah penantian
dibiar terkulai lesu dalam hangat pengalaman.

berjalanlah satu iltizam
memuncak sirna yang sendeng
saat detik itu menjadi pegun
langkah terasa jauh tanpa keterpanjangan

walau ke mana geruhmu terasa
aku tetap memecut dalam suara mereka
sekali laluan ribut beralih arah
maka mereka dan aku akan jua ke sana

dengarkan satu pandangan olehnya
kegusaran sebuah pertentangan
ke depan dan ke belakang tidak kesampaian
menjadi bekas tapak satu kegemilangan

menulis sebuah ritma dari ilham
terasa diriku mendekati benteng
walaupun berlambak mereka yang berterbangan
dalam keterusan sebuah kekosongan

kau dan aku hanya satu titik dalam masa
percayalah dengan adanya syurga dan neraka
biar putih di hati yang merah
jangan sesekali disesali setelah tiba di sana.

KHALID REDZA RAMLAN
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GELANG PATAH


p/s: success is not final, failure is not fatal, it is the courage to continue that counts...
- Winston Churchill

lack of sleep cause no mood... can you believe that?

today, i don't really had the fire burning in my inner furnace to write long and pondering on things that i had not probably meddled with in the first place. so, I'm giving you one of my old poem back in my university days.

The Hourglass

People come and goes

Accordingly, definitively

Passionate of endurance

Burning to the maximum

How can that happen?

The truth is there

For us to find it.

But not all question

Had the appropriate answer.

Sometimes…

You just have to let it be…

And let it go unanswered.

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P/s: pondering questions -

Just how important does a person have to be before they are considered assassinated instead of just murdered?

passive business

since September 2010, I've joined a few programme that promotes passive income. i know, some of the readers may think that these programmes were nothing more than scams. truthfully, some of them were scams, such sweet promises in the beginning, twist and turns in the middle, and in the end, "we're facing a non-returnable loss that's so colossal, you can kiss your investment money goodbye". funny? not really.

but as far as I'm concern, there's still a few good, honest and reliable programmes that can be joined; which I'm currently putting my good worthy money in, into them.

as long as you or any reader, who wanted to join, remembers the mantra, J.A.Y.O.R. or Join At Your Own Risk, you've been forewarned enough of its consequences.

these are some programmes that I've put my shares into them:

1. 2kali.com - lot pengiklanan
   
2. bisnes pasif bersama bro PoziAbb - lot pengiklanan + bisnes emas
3. ClubAsteria - jana pendapatan pasif (ultimate passive = 400usd per week)
   
4. bisnes pasif bersama bro AbeKun - pengiklanan + profit sharing
   
5. AgroMulty Trading - keli organik + profit sharing
6. VGMC - gold bisnes (online forex + offline)
7. bisnes pasif bersama bro EmanBiz - pengiklanan + blog + profit sharing
   

there's a lot more of these kind of programmes that can be chose by readers that caters their own personal motives when joining. for me, these are just some programmes that can help me to generate extra incomes when no one else can help you, especially, in the middle of the month.

i am, in no way, promoting these business to those who wants to get a lot of money in the shortest span of time. these are not get-rich-quick-scheme. if you want it that way, it's up to you. i'm just sharing the few programmes that i trust. that's all.

P/s: Worrying works! 90% of the things I worry about never happen.

a poetic post

The Road Not Taken




Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Robert Frost


when i took this picture, this poem came right into my mind. although the road wasn't diverged in a yellow wood, the mood that came from this picture, really expressed itself in a way that i longed for the time of my life where i was a university student. oh, the choices that we had back then.

P/s: You can be as mad as a mad dog at the way things went. You could swear, curse the fates, but when it comes to the end, you have to let go.

simulacrum paronymous

simulacrum

n. (pl. -ra) image; semblance; vague likeness; sham. simulacral, a.

*biskut campuran - got ISO approval, no wonder it's good...

paronym

n. word having same derivation as another, or formed from foreign word, or having same form as cognate foreign word. paronymic, paronymous, a.


so much depends
upon
where you put
the
line breaks

full of sig
-nificance

surrounded by
white

space.


- William Carlos Williams
from William Carlos Williams Explains His Craft (Sesame Street Books 1986)

(copied from http://www.barbelith.com/topic/19150)

My Nokia X3-02

*WARNING! PICTURE HEAVY POST!*

yesterday, i bought a phone for my sister as she said her phone was already showing distressed signs due to her phone was using the ribbon type. a Nokia-what-model-I'm-not-sure, but a sliding phone. so, i asked around in the shop, and they showed me quite a few phone as she specifically wanted a phone that can do 3G call, support MMS, WiFi capabilities and most importantly, a bar phone. she had learn her lesson from a sliding phone, i guess.

there were 5 major contenders:

1. Nokia X3-02



2. i-Mobile 3G 5512



3. SonyEricsson Elm



4. Nokia N79



5. Nokia E72



now, she's not a choosy person, as long as it does specifically what she had in mind, she couldn't care less. but, the options verdicts were like this:

1. this is phone is brand new, but grey set, i.e, shop warranty only.

2. i-Mobile phone, only have silver colour, no other colours were available

3. this SE phone, it still using the FastPort as its main charging port and also for data transfer. trouble would be lurking if one forgot to pack up their own charger! stay clear of the danger!

4. this phone really captured my attention when it came out in the market, it's a good phone and have a lot under its sleeves, but unfortunately, the phone was secondhand, but i didn't have any qualms on secondhand, but, unfortunately, it was in a bad condition, scratches on the body, charging port needed some care and attention. frankly, it's not worth the day.

5. i like this phone actually, been wanting this phone for myself, but i just couldn't justify my needs with the phone. the features are good, the battery life is quite okay, but my sis rejected this model as she hated QWERTY phones. oh well...

so, after an hour and a half at the shop, i've decided to take the Nokia X3-02 home. imagine my surprise when she came home with a new phone!

NOKIA C6!


guess she didn't really learn her lesson well. so, right now, I'm stuck with this Nokia X3-02. rather than not using it, let's try it for a couple of days, let's see how well i can adapt to the keypad positioning.


P/s: Did you know that dolphins are so smart that within a few weeks of captivity, they can train people to stand on the very edge of the pool and throw them fish?

going to the gym

after battling with my inner self, I've finally succumb to the need of going to a proper gymnasium, instead of thinking of going. I've registered myself to a nearby gym which I swore in God's name, I haven't had the slightest clue of its existence until a few days ago when pointed out by a fellow colleague.

the reason is simple, I want to build back my stamina as I've realised that, climbing a flight of stairs is robbing me of my breath. not so much breath, mind you, but it did pushed my heart and lungs to work harder, which probably caused by the fat that clotted my blood circulation vessel, the artery system. i didn't want to end up to have a heart attack just climbing stairs to go to classes to teach, seriously, i prayed to God that's not the case.

another reason would be, i want to get some shape back for my body. yes, i know the "round IS a shape" joke, but this time, it's not a laughing matter. i found out the hard way, that, it's getting harder and harder just to get some decent sized pants.

yeap, that's it, exercising in the gymnasium to get the necessary stamina, do some workout routines to develop the proper body mass, muscle and fat ratios to get some nice size for myself and burned off the unwanted fat by using diet plans.


P/s: A little boy asked his father, "Daddy, how much does it cost to get married?"
Father replied, "I don't know son, I'm still paying."

aphilophrenia

aphilophrenia

n. - a feeling that one is unloved or unwanted

hello? who's there?

how should i know, I'm here, not there...

*look at this picture, out of hundreds of pictures that i took, this is the only one picture that features me, the photographer... story of my life...

P/s: Light travels faster than sound. This is why some people appear bright until you hear them speak